Make No Excuses

I am the epitome of an independent spirit, and I am in the quest for my own American dream. However, never in my life until now have I experienced doubt in my abilities from outsiders. It's a big shock to my system and my immediate response to this discouragement and condemnation is to  naturally fight back or run away (fight or flight defense mechanism). Since duels are no longer a socially acceptable solution to such problems I opt for the more professional approach: I snub and ignore to the best of my ability. Still, like any good thorn in your side the problems persist. Now, I'm faced with this unnatural build up of animosity towards these negative forces whispering failure into my life- and they are winning because it gets to me! I so want to be that tough bitch that says "fuck you nay-sayers go live your own life and scrutinize your own decisions!"... but that would just upset the balance of southern hospitality that is at work here, and I wouldn't dare do that. 


I just don't understand how my victory can be perceived as the loss for someone else, nothing I hope to accomplish here could possibly cause that to happen. Equally incomprehensible, why in the good lord's name would anyone think to mutter the phrase "you will fail without me" as some sort of leverage to gain credibility with me? Do you really think marginalizing my talents, insulting my work ethic, then telling me that without your help I will never make it would spark some epiphany that makes me suddenly want you around? Ha.  


News flash, I've made it where I am now with the encouragement of my family and friends and through my own hard work. I do not need the selfish attempts of power grabbing from someone who is merely encroaching on my ideas to revel in my success then tell me that it would have never happened without their intervention. That's just insanity. Oh I will succeed, and my success will be your folly through your own doing. 


It's just too bad that you let pride get in your way. I was born to play the game, and I am good at it.