Change Your Mind

The start of anything in your life is usually ushered in by changes. A change of scenery, perspective, friends, lovers, a change of course from where you thought you were heading. I think it is all too easy to designate a person, a muse rather, with this new take on life when in fact they are just around in the midst of your personal evolution and we subconsciously attach them to a wonderful feeling of endorphins and control over our lives.

Your old muse fades with every new beginning, it may be the case that they change but if so they are changing with you. Nothing supersedes the fact that you are in a constant state of change, so much that even inaction and the choice to remain in the same circumstances will change you and continue to persuade your thoughts. It's almost funny to recount how paralyzed I have been over the past year. Persuaded into believing a certain way of life was more elusive than I had previously given it merit. Do not give up the things that make you happy in order to keep the order. For every excuse there is a counter excuse and more than likely it's the exact same argument - "If you never try then you'll never know..." what happens once you try and wish you had never known that alternative? The world is filled with lucrative hooks and lures that blind us with our own indiscretions and after wards we wonder how we continued along with such destructive and belittling behavior like we didn't see it coming, like we didn't realize what we were doing every time (all along).

No one wants to feel devalued. No one wants to feel the strain of wanting somebody's praise or approval but we do, it's only human. Powerlessness is truly the worst feeling to ever have, it's the root of all the terrible things in life - having no control over a situation, but worse because it's your situation. You can't change how other people behave if they are set on acting that way. You can't change someone else's past - you just have to deal with it. And you have to decide if you want to deal with it. There is no set of instructions to follow and nothing is a sure thing in this world. You're guaranteed to change your mind so don't fail victim to your own prejudice.