Impulsive Behavior

One day I got it in my head that I was going to move abroad. So, I quit my job ambitions for Washington, D.C. and booked a flight to Amsterdam in the Fall. I've temporarily changed careers: politics for film making. Why not - I'm young and have time on my side. I need a better perspective on life. I need to meet new characters with different points of view and stories I have never heard before. The chance to say I threw my hands up in the air once and let go! The strangest thing is I'm not worried in the slightest. --This coming from the girl who over thought her political career moves at the age of 17. I've strategically planned my job moves from Senator's offices and state campaigns to working for political parties and lobbying firms.

I hit a wall this Summer and I need to step back and reassess. I've learned a lot about myself over the past few years. Most importantly I learned what I gain the most happiness from: my friends and family. There has been a disconnect between what I have been working towards and what I value in life. People matter to me and there was a time when I believed politics was the best venue for me to work in to impact the most lives. I remember telling people when asked why I wanted to go into politics that, "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em". A month ago I realized something while desperately trying to make sense of my purpose here in Washington: I've been saying that line for 4 years and the obvious flaw in my logic just hit me! "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em".... it never occurred to me that I never tried to beat the system by going off in my own endeavors!!! ::facepalm::

I believe now more than ever that film, communications, and multimedia are my outlets to changing lives. I want to bridge the gap between cultural differences, show the good things in life, offer hope and solutions! There is so much I could do... and trust me my brain is moving at 100 miles a minute in thinking everything up. I guess my future is in my impulsive behavior and thank God I realized this now before I wasted any more time. :)